Eating disorder: My story

I’m not going to make this too long and hopefully you guys will read it. So here it is..

About 3 years ago I started my weight loss journey and I was doing pretty great. I was making amazing progress and was so happy about myself. I was 110% healthy in all aspects of my life. Then one day I ate too much..I saw on Tumblr some girls talking about it and even tho I told myself that I would never do that.. well, I did. I went into the bathroom and I made myself through up. At first I told myself that it was only for that time and that I would never do it again..but I did. It was so easy to just eat whatever i wanted without gaining weight. The only thing is that I never realized that I became addicted to it. I wasn’t gaining weight, I still lost a few pounds (around 5) but after a while I couldn't lose any more. My weight was content and no matter what I did I couldn’t lose a pound and that would depress me. 

It lasted for 2 years and when I finally decided to seek for help I was really in a bad place.My teeth were sensitive from the acid, I had zero energy to do anything, I would have panic attacks and suffer from anxiety, my hair was falling out, I would have nightmare..I was just so miserable. It took me around a year to recover. I had to go an intensive program for that but it was worth it. I’m still not completely recovered will probably never will but I’m working on it. And this is the story behind my weight gain. I gained all the weight back and to be honest I’m not so happy about that part because I’m not really dealing good with that part just yet. But then again I’m working really hard on it. I’m sharing this today because I want to help other people get over that hard moment in their life and tell them that hey friend, recovery is possible. Happiness is possible. Loving yourself IS POSSIBLE. Please seek help as soon as possible. The sooner the better you’ll feel. I guarantee you it’s worth it.

Thank you.

A. N.

Quick OOTD

Life in pictures

Ok so I usually write some pretty long posts but it's been a while because of school and I just wanted you guys to appreciate some of my favourite pieces of life from theses past weeks! 

1. I had the most amazing hot-dog with K on St-Denis

2. I got my hands on one of my mom vintage jacket from France

3. I got a faux fur clutch for 8$ and K and I named it blueburt

4. I went to a random fair and it was so much fun

5. Tried a new pastry that was oh so yummy

6. My cat is the most adorable thing on earth

7. I had the biggest General Tao plate ever

8. I got The Book Of Negroes  by Lawrence Hill and got to enjoy breakfast while reading it!

Well that's all guys! I resumed the couple past weeks in a few points. I hope you enjoyed my pictures as much as I do. PS I'm taking d=some photography classes next semester and I'm so happy about it! Now I have to save some money buy a good camera, but I'm so excited to show you my progress!

Love.

A.N. 

My Weightloss Journey & Youtube come back

Favourite Products for a Glowing, Fab & Healthy Skin

Ok guys, a lot of people compliment me on my skin and ask me what IS my secret. Well, get your pen and paper cuz I'm about to give you some advice! Shoutout to all my black people struggling with ashy errrthing, I feel y'all! Anyway, let's start with my face routine: I have do have some acne  sometimes and oily skin but Proactiv really does wonders. I definitely recommend it for people with normal to oily skin. The only downside is that it dries out my skin so that's when Body Shop's Vitamin E Serum & Intense Moisture Cream comes in! I am in love with these two! They hydrate my face and leave it super soft and glowing! I also use the Body Shop's Seaweed Deep Cleansing Facial Wash and Clarifying Toner when I want to get rid of my makeup smoothly. Now let me tell you, these two smell is divine! They also leave a refresh sensation on your skin, LOVE IT! 

Now I know that some people have trouble squeezing facial routine in their every day life or just trouble remembering. The best advice I have is to keep the cleanser in the shower and to wash your face since you're already at it! Talking about shower, I scrub around 2 times a week so I can get rid of the dead skin and get that extra hydration boost. To do that I use the Strawberry & Papaya sugar body scrub. I feel like I'm covering myself with candy and, let's be honest, who never wish they could do that! It smells amazing and after it, you feel so soft you won't be able to stop touching your skin! Oh and even if they're not apart of my skin regimen, the Coconut Water Weightless Hydration shampoo and conditioner from OGX is simply incredible for your hair! The name says it all, it hydrates without weighting the hair! What else can we ask for?!

Moving on to the after shower care, I use the Body Shop's Strawberry Body Butter and  got to say that it is my favourite product of them all. Everything about it makes me happy, the smell, the texture and what it does to my skin..thanks to it, my skin has never been softer and more radiant! I apply it when my skin is still a little damp so that it can absorb more of the product, it also allows me to use less than I would on a dry skin. I also use the Pure Désir de Lilas from Yves Rocher from time to time because the smell of it is out-of-this-world lovely.

You probably guessed by now, I love to smell good. I cannot get out of my house knowing that I stink. So for an extra fresh and light smell, I  sometimes spray some of the Ralph Lauren's Romance body mist. You know, for those days when I don't really feel like wearing perfume.

Voilà! There you have it, my secret for a glowing fab and Healthy skin! Moisture, moisture and always moisture! I wish you guys an awesome week, full of happiness and peace! I linked down below all the products that I could find! Give me your feedbacks on how you find my post and what you would like to read about next time! 

A. N.

(Products on the picture) From the top right to the left corner: 

1. Vitamin E Intense moisture Cream & Serum from Body Shop

2. Proactiv's Cleanse, Tone and Treat treatment

3. Ralph Lauren's Romance Body Mist

4. Pure Désir de Lilas body lotion from Yves Rocher 

5. Coconut Water Weightless Hydration Shampoo & Conditioner from OGX

6. Seaweed Deep Cleansing Facial Wash & Clarifying Toner from Body Shop

7. Strawberry & Papaya Sugar Body Scrub

8. Strawberry Body Butter from the Body Shop

More Me?

Hello, hello!

I know it's been a while since I wrote anything here and I really missed it! To be honest I wasn't convince that anyone was interested in what i had to say. One time I asked Kenneth (my boyfriend) what he thought of my articles and he said that I wasn't putting enough of myself in them. I was discouraged and frustrated because I knew he was right but I couldn't find my own style of writing. So I decided to drop everything even though it made me sad. I have to confess that whenever something is starting to get hard, I abandon it because of the fear of failing. I've done that almost all my life. Well guess what? Not anymore! I'm really trying to go forward in my life and get the best of it. Of course it's not something that happen overnight but I'm pretty confident in myself. Baby steps y'all, baby steps!

Changing the subject, happy (late) New Year! I hope you all had a good time for those of you who remember their evening\night, yes party animals, I see you. I sure did had a good one. Went to the Old port in Montreal with Kenneth, where we met some of my friends. It was so cold and I was clearly underdress but the fireworks, my crazy drunk\tipsy friend, and the fact that K and I were celebrating our first New Year together, made it amazing! The general spirit was so full of love, happiness and joyful spirit that nothing could've made it negative anyway. Montreal people are the best! Kenneth and I finally went to a bar and spend the rest of the night together. Simple but couldn't be more perfect in my book.

Who says New Year say New Year's resolutions.. Oh those good old resolutions that everyone forget after a few weeks! Like so many before me, I failed at those self promises over and over again. It seems like, once a year, we all suddenly forget that we can start a new lifestyles anytime we want! I read somewhere that it only takes 21 days to integrate a new habit in your life routine..and only a bad week full of chocolate, pies and other sugary goodies to make you fall back! but not this time!

It's crazy to think that 2 years ago I was so close to be super fit and to my ''goal weight''. I broke into my bad habits and created a new lifestyle that I was so proud of! Unfortunately, I got sick. Although I'm not ready to talk about it in details, I will say that it was the most difficult 2 years of my life but not just negativity got out of it. It made me grow and now I'm more aware of what kind of person I want to become. I'm not going to lie it was hard, and still is, but I'm working on it. Trying to change my bad habits day by day. 

So here I am, writing an overly long post about myself haha. On a more joyful note, I'm currently really into blogging and Youtube videos. I did a little video for my friend about our summer trip and I really enjoyed it so I decided to upload it! It was an amazing feeling! I wanted to do Youtube videos for a while never really did anything about it (beside 3 videos). Anyway, I know now that I'm definitely going to blog more about Fashion, (Healthy) Food and of course discovering new stuff!

Soon it will be spring and as the birds return to the trees on their yearly migration, so will the feelings of warmth and excitement in our hearts and minds. The feelings only a city like Montreal can inspire me.

A. N.

Food, People, Books & Sweet cravings

What a week! I bought some Agatha Christie's ( the classics!) a few days before traveling to France, at this awsome low cost/second hand library on the streets Mont-Royal and Papineau , called Magasin Orange (orange store)! They have all sort of books, CDs and movies and the cashier is the most happy man ever, always smiling and kind! It's maybe just me, but I love books with history, that use to belong to someone else and bring joy to them. I feel like I'm a part of joyful chain of happy readers passing their happiness to strangers by simply giving a book! Unfortunately I didn't really read while on vacation so it was time for me to get back to reading!

Other than that I ate so much yummy things!  First, my boyfriend K and I went to Dunn's Famous on the street Metcalfe, a small diner style restaurant known for their smoke meat and founded in Montreal. I took the Chicken Ceasar Wrap and K took their famous smoke meat sandwich, we were not disappointed! Plus the service was fast and friendly.

Tuesday, one of my oldest friend Karine and I went to the city's pie heaven: Rockaberry (the one on St-Denis! They have so many choices..it took us 15 min to choose! We finally went for the Caramel Fudge Brownie Cheesecake Pie and I thought I'd achieved nirvana! Yes it was THAT good! We had a blast there.

Wednesday, my girl Alisha and I went to Juliette & Chocolat, an amazing dessert restaurant full of, you'll probably guess it, chocolate goodness. I took the Salt Caramel Brownie with their creamy/mellowness classic hot coco! She took the Cheesecake Brownie with their delicious white hot coco. We sat outside on their terrace and enjoyed the weather! A really nice evening!

I hope you guys had a good and positive week too!

A. N.