Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Weight loss & Body acceptance

As most of you know, I am currently on a weight loss journey and lately it's been hard for me because I don't seem to find the boost that I need to really get into it. I've been eating good since I'm in Toronto but I don't exercice..idk..I want to do more but I always find excuses when it's time for action. Also I've been having some trouble with my body image and acceptance. Although I lost 7lbs so far since I'm away from home! I still feel like I could've do more, y'know?  Having a history of ED, I know those kind of thoughts can be dangerous for me so I'm ttrying really hard to focus and to not worry about all that. I can do this! 

I'm still on the hunt of job (something else I should put more efforts into!) and as soon as I get one I'm thinking about going on a juice cleanse for about a week. I believe it will be good for me. I'll probably try to be vegetarian/vegan after it or have a mostly vegan diet, I'm not sure yet. I'll go with the flow! I'm already doing my best to eat a lot more veggies and fruits and I'm not going to lie, I feel great! Today is thanksgiving in Canada so I'm off to my boyfriends house to stuff my face with some turkayy and pie, I litterally can't wait because I know that my diet will be strict when I go back home tomorrow night! No more fooling around, I'm ready to kick my own butt!  

A.N.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Update & Cupcakes

I haven't really had time to update you guys since I arrived in Toronto (almost) two weeks ago. I know, it's already been two whole weeks!! I love the city, even tho I've only been downtown with my best friend once. I'm planning on exploring more this weekend tho. I would definitely try my best to take cool pictures! I'm currently job hunting because Toronto is a pretty expensive place and I want to be able to pay for my phone and a gym membership! I really want to be more healthy like I said before and I'm actually doing good since I've been living away from home because I actually choose healthy food. I did bought a little box of cupcakes but I feel like i deserved it haha. Anyway, I really can't wait to see more of this amazing city and meet amazing people!

A.N.



Tuesday, September 1, 2015

More than ready...

Oh boy! It's been so long since I wrote something! To be honest I dont have a real excuse for that. I'm the type of person that will start something, get frustrated and bored when things are not going like I want to and then just abandon everything. I'm trying really hard to kick my own butt to keep doing what I like even when I'm not where I want to be. And let me tell you: I love writing!

Anyways, as you may have seen on my last video, I'm moving to Toronto in two weeks and sincerely I can't tell you guys how much this new start is needed! I need to reinvent myself, grow and expand my horizons! Here in Montreal I don't go out of my comfort zone or very rarely and I think that by actually leaving everything behind will push myself to get out of my shell and to explore the world if I may say. I'm tired of being the girl who doesn't do much, who doesn't have anything to say when people ask "so what's new with you". This is not where I want to be in life. I have goals, dream, aspirations. I want to be active! Wake up early, have a day full of exploring, learning and meeting new people. Live a healthy lifestyle. Obviously to achieve all of that I need to make choices and sacrifices. To tell you the truth I am more than ready!

A.N.

Monday, August 10, 2015

My Plans For This School Year..
As you guys know I live in Montreal, Quebec, Canada. So we have a different school system here. We go to elementary school for 6 years, then high school for 5 years then we go to CEGEP for 2 years IF we want to go to university or 3years if we want to go directly to work after it.
 Anyway now that you understand our system a little bit I can start to explain…As I said before I had an eating disorder and it started during my first year of cegep. I wasn’t doing good at school and i basically failed all the classes that i took. Then came the next year where the same thing happened and the school told me to take a year to recover, so in other word to get my shit together. So I did but it also meant that I lost one more year of school. That made 3. Last school year I went back to CEGEP but my councillor told me that I still had 2 years left before university which is a big no no for me. The only way that i can go to university in less than 2 years is by not going to school at all for a minimum of a year.
 So because of all of that, my mother and I decided that it would be a good idea for me to go outside of Montreal to perfect my english before attending to the university that I choose which is an english speaking one. Our first choice was to go to San Francisco because I have 2 aunties there but I missed the inscription for the fall semester. Now we are looking for Toronto. Which is closer to home, cheaper and I have my best friend living there too. Im planning on taking some advance english classes there which are free for citizens and immigrants, finding a shared apartment and getting a job. 
Now before you ask, K and I agreed that we still want to pursuit our relationship even if it means from a distance. Im not thrilled to physically separate myself from him for a whole year but it’s something that I need to do and I know that some of you will ask why don’t I just take english classes here, well because it would count as going to class! See Quebec being the only French speaking province in Canada, french classes are the one that are free and that dont have anything to do with school. But in the rest of the country it’s english. So if I want to go to university next year, I have to not go to school at all. I really dont know if that makes any sense but wtv haha. Anyway, all of this was to say that I’m going to Toronto this year to take english classes to prepare myself for going to an english university next year! Im excited, nervous and sad at the same time because I get to change cities and to go for an adventure but I’m going to physically leave my man behind for a whole year. Don’t get me wrong he’s going to visit and I’ll do the same but it’s definitely going to be a challenge for our couple and i really hope that everything is going to work out well! 
 A.N.